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| Sunday, January 22nd, 2006 | | 8:38 am |
umm... i still have this livejournal? what?? | | Friday, July 15th, 2005 | | 9:26 pm |
haha. i'm so freakin funny. Soccer7807 [9:14 PM]: wanna see a pic of me DancinTines14 [9:14 PM]: sure Soccer7807 [9:14 PM]: ok Soccer7807 [9:19 PM]: did you get them DancinTines14 [9:21 PM]: mhmmm DancinTines14 [9:21 PM]: exy DancinTines14 [9:21 PM]: sexy Soccer7807 [9:21 PM]: do you think so DancinTines14 [9:21 PM]: yes Soccer7807 [9:21 PM]: i like those pics Soccer7807 [9:21 PM]: ya i bet you want to do me DancinTines14 [9:22 PM]: oh, you guessed it DancinTines14 [9:22 PM]: i love fully clothed pictures of you and old men DancinTines14 [9:22 PM]: it makes me think threesome!! Soccer7807 [9:22 PM]: thats my dad..... DancinTines14 [9:23 PM]: haha yeah Soccer7807 [9:23 PM]: ya Soccer7807 [9:23 PM]: lol Soccer7807 [9:23 PM]: but still you know you want me DancinTines14 [9:24 PM]: totally | | Wednesday, July 13th, 2005 | | 8:38 pm |
| | Tuesday, July 12th, 2005 | | 4:18 pm |
Top 10 Reasons to date a Dancer 1.We know all the positions 2.We have perfect technique, good rhythm, and great hip rotation 3.We're used to having bruises on our knees 4.We're used to performing in minimal amounts of clothing 5.We're perfectionists: theyll keep going until they hit it 6.We can shake it like no other 7.After a quick intermission we're ready to go at it again 8.We don't mind getting hot and sweaty 9.We're not as delicate and fragile as we look 10.One word..FLEXIBILITY Now while all of this is true, are these the Top 10 Reasons to Date a Dancer... or fuck a dancer? Give me your input... ready... go. | | Sunday, July 10th, 2005 | | 1:43 pm |
So in Alabama... people shoot things. And when I saw a dead fox on the side of the road, it reminded me of everyone from home. If you're sexy and you know it clap your hands... | | Wednesday, July 6th, 2005 | | 9:57 pm |
| | Tuesday, July 5th, 2005 | | 9:17 pm |
| | Monday, June 13th, 2005 | | 1:26 pm |
Sweet Jesus...
Hi. I'm home. In Vernon Hills. Not in the middle of the woods. And not at my alcoholic uncles house. I miss my friends more than I ever fucking thought I could. Thus... I don't think I'm going to Oklahoma. But basically, if anyone wants to hang out tonight... or ever... lets make plans! Even if I don't know you, I bet i'm missing you right about now.. Awww... Kelly's gone... Current Mood: indicative. (wtf?)Current Music: "Somebody to Love" -Queen | | Friday, June 10th, 2005 | | 6:35 pm |
Today I hitched a ride back to civilization... but there was a price for leaving the family at bumblefuck early... My cousin and I drove under blue skies, with the sun shining. I turned around from the passengers seat to see complete darkness, everything we had just left behind. At that point the blue skies had never been so inviting, I'd never been so happy just to be driving on a road, just to be alive. 13 minutes earlier we had just dodged a tornado. We were actually 10 minutes away from being hit by the first one, 7 minutes from the second... and 2 from the last. I don't know, I guess almost being sucked into a tornado made me truly appreciate the hot summer weather... but being in a transitional phase where you can see the dark clouds behind you, and feel yourself heading towards the clear skies ahead... I'd take that over having perfect whether for my entire life anyday. Anyways, this post is actually intended to let you guys know that I am back in civilization... where I actually have phone service. So now I'm only 3 hours away, and Kayla and I have our grandma's house to ourselves for the night... feel free to visit (or call if you're not insane). To all of those doing relay for life- have an awesome time!!! | | Tuesday, June 7th, 2005 | | 11:39 pm |
Dear Everyone, I am currently in a cabin 7 hours north of here. With .0000003 civilization. Feel free to call/text/im/come drive up and visit me. And if I respond in a language that is incomprehensible... just let me be and pray I get back alive. I hate society... but I'm missing people already... | | 1:14 am |
I love the rain, it masks my tears...
The person that this is about doesn't read livejournal, in fact I doubt he knows I have one. He doesn't know much about me... I spend more time on the phone with his best friend than I do with him, because he always says he'll call and then never does. And whenever I call I get the feeling that he could be doing something more important than talking to me. I've been dating him for 3 months and have yet to see him outside of school, or my basement, or his unsupervised house. This guy has been my life for... too long... I've given up a lot for him. And I know that I care more for him than he does for me... but tonight, for the first night in 3 months, at 11:11 I didn't wish for him to feel the same way. Because wishing has done jackshit for me thus far. I don't know how much longer I can take being lied to, having him make excuses, hide behind his words [or lack there of]... I'm tired of being used for all I'm worth, and then not seeing more than a few minutes of him the next day...I'm tired of always being second best, always being the last priority on his list. I haven't minded sitting on the sidelines for a while, because he's amazing in so many ways... and I still believe that in many ways I am unworthy of him. It's not that I feel that I deserve better, in all honesty this is the best it's ever been for me and thus I couldn't hope for more... I just.. want more than anything for him to tell me that he cares... even in the slightest bit. After all, he did promise things would get better... but that's just one more lie, one more promise broken. And all I ever wanted to do was make him happy... | | Monday, June 6th, 2005 | | 12:21 am |
Long ago, in someone else's lifetime...someone with my name,who looked a lot like me... Came to know a man and made a promise; he only had to say..and that's where she would be Lately,although the feelings run just as deep...the promise she made has grown impossible to keep,and yet I wish it wasn't so.. Will he miss me if I go? In a way, it's someone else's story...I don't see myself as taking part at all Yesterday,a girl that I was fond of finally could see the writing on the wall Sadly, she realized she'd left him behind...and sadder than that she knew he wouldn't even mind...and though there's nothing left to say Would he listen if I stay? It's all very well to say 'you fool it's now or never' I could be choosing no choices whatsoever. I could be in someone else's story,in someone else's life...and he could be in mine I don't see a reason to be lonely..I could take my chances further down the line And if that girl I knew should ask my advice...oh I wouldn't hesitate she needn't ask me twice 'Go now!'I'd tell her that for free...trouble is, the girl is me... The story is, the girl is me. | | Saturday, May 21st, 2005 | | 1:51 am |
This is why I never update.
I just spent an hour making a really cool story with pictures in tribute to the bus ride Hannah and I had. I go to post it, and as you can see there is nothing there. Somebody please inform me if livejournal stops sucking. | | 1:38 am |
Hannah, I love you thiiiiiiiis much.
We kept ourselves amused for a 40 minute bus ride... perhaps this could entertain you too. So join us... if you dare... <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v517/ijustwanttofly/hannah004.jpg> | | Tuesday, April 12th, 2005 | | 10:22 pm |
Uhhhh
So... here's 87 reasons why my Grandma from AZ is the coolest person in my life. 1. She helped make the invites to my sweet 16 [and dude... if you aren't invited and want to go just let me know]. 2. I said that i want to go to the melting pot when i got home from school today and she simply said "i'll take you!" 3. So I'm her oldest grandaughter... and she totally made me drive her to the restaurant. 4. Here's the best part ever. This is also why i'm getting my liscence in less than 48 hours. So the directions my dad gave me contradicted the ones on our navigation system. Yes, we got lost. For an hour. I drove under the stress of having fancy dinner reservationis... I did three point turns without even noticing. IN STILETTOS! Duude, i was on fiaaaaare. And as soon as we got there she said "This was fun. I wasn't hungry before, but now I'm ready to eat." < 3 5. I enjoyed a fantabulous dinner with my grandmother, and i got to hear about her and my grandfather met... and it was nice because i never get to spend time with her alone. 6. The dinner consisted of cheese fondue, bleu cheese salad, filet mignon with many sauces, and FLAMING TURTLE CHOCOLATE FONDUE. 7. On the way home both me and my grandma knew where we were going. Neither one of my parents has sat with me behind the wheel for over an hour. 8. When i pulled in the driveway she said "You can blame the extra hour on my slow eating if you want to..." 9-234325. I LOVE HER SO FLIPPING MUCH. So yeah. Sorry for not updating. And sorry for updating now. On a totally non-related topic i just wanted to thank my friends [those who read this and those who don't... represent?] for being so awesome. Yeah. Yeah i'll get personaly and touchy feely when i next update. in like a year. Yes i just said touchy-feely... | | Sunday, March 20th, 2005 | | 4:29 pm |
| | Monday, March 14th, 2005 | | 11:20 pm |
| | Monday, March 7th, 2005 | | 8:40 pm |
Orange and Linen Blossoms
Warning: This is not important. Only read this if you have a ridiculous amount of time on your hands. Or you really want to procrastinate homework... The world is not just black and white. I am perfectly aware of this an infact embrace this. God life would suck if the answer to everything were only right or wrong [even math doesn't always work that way anymore]. But right now my life is grey. In every essence. Not even various shades of grey, just grey. I just recieved a letter from the camp i auditioned from the day after turnabout. I've spent the past month planning my summer around either making it or not making it. As i began to open the letter I even visualized my different reactions to both circumstances. And then I opened it... not to get a yes or a no, but a maybe. I'm on the waiting list, along with 49 other people which is amazing because they audition nation wide. I'm honored, i really am. This would be the chance of a lifetime, and even to audition was a great experience for me. But part of me almost wishes that i'd just gotten rejected. There's no room for false hope, but there's also no room for false doubt. I can spend hours at a time contemplating this but the matter is out of my hands. If you know any portion of my history with guys... you'd understand two things. 1. I have huge anxiety issues and 2. I'm bipolar. I've just realized that i've liked this same guy for over a month. I've never even had a relationship that long. And yes, i've spent a lot of time thinking about this... and i don't just like the idea of him. There are sooo many reasons why i should like him, and that's not the reason i do. I like him because... well... I can't even really explain it. I've tried to get over it, but i can't get over something if i'm not rejected. And i don't want to be, like i don't care if there isn't ever a relationship. I may be going on false hope here... but so be it. So long as I have some sort of feelings i know that i'm... human. I'm not bipolar, everything about me has sort of balanced out. I would do anything to make this work. But i don't know what there is to do. And i mean that about both of the things i just talked about... and pretty much every other aspect of my life. I feel like everythings in the hands of fate, and i'm just a piece on a gameboard... and i don't like it. Well i guess i'll leave on that note. Even my lj posts are bland. | | Saturday, March 5th, 2005 | | 10:49 am |
I woke up at 6 15 this morning for no apparent reason actually. But it was nice. I took a bath, and shower, packed for Lake Geneva [i'll have the cellular, call me... please?], and yeah. Then i drove my dad to immediate care. and to the bakery. and to walgreens. i need to get in 12 hours of driving before April 14th. Totally rocking. But shyeah, do the right thing. Call me, and save me... from a long extended period of time with my family. | | Friday, February 25th, 2005 | | 3:48 pm |
Haha, looks like Julia has some competition. Jonah gave me lint!!! |
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